cabin fever

so after walking around on my own for a while i realise that if i'm not;
a)drinking
b)working
c)with pat
d)getting laid
i actually have nothing to do, the last two days have been spent walking around town (which in preston is not a pleasant experience) or sat at home on the internet (i am not the most exciting company, hence the walking). i started thinking about things, mainly how there are lots of horrible people prowling the streets of preston, i came around to start thinking about how people can be divided up into different groups and then tried to ellaborate on this weary ,classifist theory. in my opinion i think people can be one of two things...people that do things for themselves and people that do things for other people, with this though i found a lot of grey areas, so i thought 'shit, that'll never work' and thought some more, after around forty five seconds later i thought 'shit, it doesn't work because there is no difference in those two groups'. the people that do things for themselves...mostly...is pretty self explanitory to a certain degree, but what about the people that do things for others? why do they only do things for others? they don't...pretty much. the only reason i felt that most people do things for others because of some kind of self gain whether it be physical or self gratification etcetera. which i thought was kind of depressing. but who can blame them? that's society, that's how we're brought up, that's the world around us...capitalism, can anyone really be blamed for wanting to help themselves? and can it really be looked down upon? the fact that people help others to help themselves? is an act that is intrinsically bad but have a good outcome good or bad? does the outcome outweigh the act? is it helping somebody under false pretenses? or true nature? hard to say really, i think if good things happen...even for the wrong reason...then fuck it, who cares how we got to the outcome? we got here and that's all that counts. i also beleive i have been watching way too much arrested development. good day to you.